I feel like I'm about to snap. That is all...

30 of 365 Bookshelf

30 of 365 Bookshelf, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

30 of 365a

30 of 365a, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

While waiting for our table at the ramen joint...

29 of 365 What Pays the Bills

29 of 365 What Pays the Bills, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Vampire Weekend mix notes.

28 of 365 Helios Bokeh test

28 of 365 Helios Bokeh test, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

28a of 365 Mosaic

28a of 365 Mosaic, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

27a Helios Infinity test

27a Helios Infinity test, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

27 of 365-The Forgotten

27 of 365-The Forgotten, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Getting cold out here...tourists are thinning out...people act like they don't see you....Hey! You! You see me?

26 of 365: Disappointment and Triumph

26 of 365: Disappointment and Triumph, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

click to go to flickr and hear the tale of the cranky russian

zoriah_photojournalist_war_photographer_haiti_earthquake_port_au_prince_earth_quake_20100119_1078

zoriah_photojournalist_war_photographer_haiti_earthquake_port_au_prince_earth_quake_20100119_1078, originally uploaded by Zoriah.

don't let someone else tell you how to be, well, you. (EXPLORED #1 FP!!!)

don't let someone else tell you how to be, well, you. (EXPLORED #1 FP!!!), originally uploaded by au tum n..

not mine....brilliant

23 of 365 mama's boy

23 of 365 mama's boy, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

22 of 365 Nikkor Street Portrait

22 of 365 Nikkor Street Portrait, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

I am an island unto myself. A bitter, angry, lonely miserable fuck of an island.

(overheard cell phone conversation on bus,)

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22 of 365: Hurry up and wait...

Hurry up and wait..., originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

The view from my current window, whilst waiting for a band to start soundcheck

21 of 365 a: Self Portrait

21 of 365 a: Self Portrait, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

21 of 365 b: Looking up

21 of 365 b: Looking up, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

21 of 365c: Traffic

21 of 365c: Traffic, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

what the frak?

Heard about a major entertainment exec complaining that NOT meeting Lady Gaga was a MAJOR disaster. He then went on to demand the status of the upcoming Haiti telethon.

Later found out he garnered Lady Gag's digits....and that of her moms.

Does this person have a SHRED of decency/shame/common sense?

Apparently not.

I weep for the world I work in.

19a of 365: Heading Home

19a of 365: Heading Home, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

19b of 365: The daily grind

19b of 365: The daily grind, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

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My girl kicks it Ol' Skool (with her watch choice)

My girl kicks it Ol' Skool (with her watch choice), originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

18 of 365

18 of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

18 of 365 part 2

18 of 365 part 2, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

17-of-365

17-of-365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Why do they make vegetable dumplings so damn green?

Canon 5D with SuperTakumar 55 f/1.8 on a Fotodiox Pro adaptor with focus confirmation.

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15 of 365: and so it begins

15 of 365: and so it begins, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Lord, please give Your Strength to those that need it...

Haiti Earthquake, originally uploaded by dailyskiff.

http://lens.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/01/14/pictures-138/

I've been finding myself constantly watching the coverage of what's going on in Haiti. I'm on the web looking at articles and images of the devastation. I find myself captivated by the accounts of the ongoing suffering and sorrow. I rejoice when they actually find people underneath the rubble. I found myself crying at the sight of a father weeping for his child.

I've done this before. 9/11, the Tsunami in Thailand, Typhoons in the Philippines...Disasters and suffering.

It's sad, but it puts things into perspective for me. Suddenly, things aren't so bad. Fine, I have a job that isn't exactly saving the world, but I'm good at it. Sometimes it seems as if it is lacking in the luster it first had, but I'm doing what I love. In the city that I love. Haiti has been decimated. I should be flogged for complaining.

So I'm not financially stable. I do have a roof over my head and food on the table. My dog and cat eat well. I have running water at my beck and call. I control electrons with the flick of a switch to power my toys. I carry around a dSLR worth more than a year's worth of pay for some of the Haitians. Hit me with a brick if I complain.

My Family (the one I was born into) is fractured. We're not close anymore. Painful in and of itself, but more so when the causes can be traced to decisions/actions I made. My father and I don't speak, but at least he isn't crushed under a pile of concrete. My Sister, while her apartment is a slum with no heat/hot water, she at least has a roof over her head and doesn't sleep in fear of being crushed in her sleep. I know where they are, they know where I am. There's no wondering if they're still alive...if they're in pain...

The Family (the one I chose) is at least all together. So what if I haven't had sex with the Woman in a year. So what if the Boy is autistic. They're here with me...alive and healthy. They are here in the morning to yell at me to wake up, to tell me to bring the vacuum up/downstairs, to remind me to take out the garbage....I don't know if I could bring myself to a mass grave site to try and sift through the piles of victims looking for my child. I just don't have the stones.

Something in me wants to help. We all do...but I want to DO something other than write a check... I want boots on the ground...digging out. I have no skills in this area. I'd probably be a hindrance. But texting to donate 10 bucks just seems like a way for people to help without it having to interfere with their lives. Shit, these people lost everything...you can put down your 12 dollar latte, pick up your 200 dollar iPhone loaded with every App from the AppStore, and text.

I'm stricken with grief for Haiti. I pray She stays strong.

My little craptastic piece of the world has become more precious. Yours should too.

14 of 365 Night

14 of 365 Night, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

13 of 365 technical exercise

13 of 365 technical exercise, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

TIE fighter costume

TIE fighter costume, originally uploaded by Official Star Wars Blog.

THIS


IS


AWESOME

okay...so some thoughts on the new year

Okay, so its 2010, and everyone promises to do something different this year.

Fine.

This year I will quit smoking. On my birthday. So, the day before I will smoke so much I plan to make myself sick. THEN, I'll quit.

I will try to wrestle the beast that is debt. I will try to keep to a budget to do so.

I really want to take a picture that's worth more than a passing glance.

I want to create a flawless live mix that holds up to critical listening.

I want my boy to look up to me, instead of fear me.

I want the Woman to remember who it is SHE is, so that we can get back to what WE are.

I want my Dad to forgive me.

Will all this happen? Maybe not. Maybe other things will happen that will make these things seem insignificant.

Who knows? It IS a new year.

So...thanks 2009, its been real.

BTW. I still want my flying car.

12 of 365 One for the Road

12 of 365 One for the Road, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

11 of 365

11 of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Wow, only 11 images into 365, and already I'm thinking of bagging...

But anyway...a favorite in these hard economic times.

I feel like this most times

just wanted to sneak in one last one from Sunday.

I think I'm addicted to these old manual lenses....

10 of 365

10 of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

10a of 365

10a of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

9 of 365

9 of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

8 of 365

8 of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

7 of 365

7 of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Well lookie dat...I DID have something in the cam for day7.

7/365

Day 7 was a complete wash for my little Project 365. I'll tell you why: my vacuum died. I ghetto rigged it to live another day, but I'm gonna have to bite the bullet and buy parts for the bugger soon.

Amazing how easy these Dyson vacuums come apart. Everything's plastic, and just snaps right off. Wonder why they're so damn expensive.

Anyway...I'm really digging this picture, even tho its not mine. It will have to do for now.

6 of 365

6 of 365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Day 5

5 of 365 really, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

2/365

2/365, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

So I've started to do a Project 365. I was on Day 3 and already stumped.

Keep up with it here

http://www.flickr.com/photos/eeeksnyc/sets/72157623007290239/

btw...the Duke pic isn't part of the 365...he was just purty....

Man this is gonna suck so hard. But then again, it might not.