common w ron mills

common w ron mills, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

My View.

My View., originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Got bored while waiting for my studio to open up.

this time last year-5393

this time last year-5393, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

Was just fooling around with some BW post processing that I picked up from watching Bert Stephani's video. Took the actual image last year.

Also got me thinking about how much I miss being in a "couple."

Untitled

Untitled, originally uploaded by Christos Kapatos (Χρήστος Καπάτος).

not mine. but this is brilliant

GWMemPark-9228

GWMemPark-9228, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

My mother's neighbor at the cemetary. Someone had placed these flowers there amidst all the Christmas wreaths. But the wind had blown them all helter skelter.

I put them back. Just seemed like the right thing to do.

jadaxmaseve2011-9250

jadaxmaseve2011-9250, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

After her first annual Christmas Eve dinner at Hop Kee.

Not sure if the look of fear is from being there...or me...

If me, it wouldn't be the first time a woman looked at me like that...haha

Tonight, I scared myself. I lost my temper in a major way.

I was/am enraged. Yelling myself hoarse. Vindictive.

I was mad. In all senses of the word.

All the frustration, hurt, isolation, fatigue....All the disappointment, the indifference...the loss of self.

All that pain. All at once. Like a volcano erupting. A swirling, roiling, inexplicably hot caldera of everything that has gone wrong.

And now...nothing. 

I am no longer who I was. That guy is finally dead.