havent been shooting much

So, in the past few months, I haven't shot a damn thing I like. Well, that's not entirely true. I did do a couple of things here and there, but they were for friends' kids', or this charity group. I don't have permission to post these.

But overall, I haven't shot a thing.

Reasons: sure, its easy to blame the day job, but I'm not sure that's really it. It DOES take up 80% of my time...the rest being spent doled out among sleeping, eating, and family. It HAS sucked the life right out of me on certain days...and it HAS recently put me in a bad mood (or...worse anyway).

But is that it?

I troll ebay for lenses that I want, but can't afford...or for lighting gear that I would like to try, but can't afford. So GAS isn't an issue (Gear Acquisition Syndrome). I'm really digging my Sigma 50mm since it was calibrated...Still loving my 5D Classic....and my sister got me this brand spankin hotrod laptop for photo editing...so the tech lust is still there...

But I've got no juice man....nothing. My street shooting sucks ass so I wind up deleting most of the pics. I carry my 5D everyday, but just can't bring myself to pull it out and shoot.

No juice.

Not in the electrical sense mind you, the creative one.

Dunno. Maybe coz the day job has become such a grind...that dried up the juice. Maybe,  me missing the Woman/GF (even tho we're in the same damn house) has something to do with it. I can't get my financial woes to stop from haunting me....maybe that's killed the juice.

Maybe I never had any to begin with?

Can't seem to wrap my head around a lot of things these days. Maybe, as they say, "This too will pass."

pretty typical

pretty typical, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

fairly typical mealtime antics. One, deep in thought, sunglasses on whilst perusing the extensive IHOP menu...the other...well, not quite sure what the hell it is he's doing....

I don't get it? is it me?

Another year

So, last Saturday was my birthday. I've taken another step towards being old. I rang in another year with a lovely head and chest cold. Always fun.

I'm tired. The two weeks before my birthday I have been working like a dog, recording/mixing/mastering a ridiculous number of artists. My brain was fried. My body hurt from the repetitive cycle of setting up studios, tearing them down, and setting them up again. The last 3 days before my birthday were solid 12-13 hours.

I was spent.

And today, the Boy turned 7. He's 4 foot 6 inches. He grows stronger, smarter, and with every day becomes more and more of his own person. Some of it I may not agree with, but its who he is. And who he will become.

For 5 of those years, I have been his father. Or, at least, as close of an approximation of "father" as I can muster. I admit, I'm the furthest thing from a good role model. But I try.

So February. Happy Birthday to The Boy...and to me.

Toys

New/old toys in our converted equipment closet/mix suite.

Woohoo!




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Hmmm

Apparently, I'm this:

Last pic of 2010

Last pic of 2010, originally uploaded by eeeksnyc.

I guess its kinda fitting that my whole pseudo Project 365 had the Boy in the beginning and end of it.

At the end of the day, everything I try to do, in some way begins and ends with him and the Woman.